I have
always asked myself Why me? Why do things happen to me? I heard that saying
before, “Everything happens for a reason”. Now I am finally realizing that the
quote is true.
When you look at me a lot of people
would think she is a happy little girl who probably is spoiled, her family is
perfect. Oh but did I mention, never judge a book by its cover. Coming from the
past I had a rough childhood but as you can see others can never notice because
I walk around fully dressed with a smile on my face every day all the time. At
my age now, 18 I am finally processing everything in my head that has went on
and that I have seen through the past eighteen years of my life and it’s pretty
scary. You ever wait to have or want something so bad but then when it’s in your
face, you don’t know how to react? Yeah that describes me right there! I have
always wanted to understand the concept of life and why this is that way and so
on and so on, and now the process has come to me and I don’t know what to say.
Maybe I have one thing to say and that is, I have come a far way and learned
from experiences so much that I am grateful to be the person that I am today.
One of the main things in my life
that I have learned to stay away from and not get involved is drugs. Drugs are
a main issue in the world today. Freshman in high school have Facebook statuses
about weed and getting bent and I think that is ridiculous. Everyone always has
something that they are against strongly and why they are so strong about it. I
think I am against drugs the most because of family. Family member do not exist
or play a role in my life because they are either dead or in jail because of
some sort of drug that they were doing.
I realized that if I did not live
with my aunt and my uncle, I honestly do not know where I would be in life. Yes
it’s sad that my father and oldest sister are sitting in a cold jail cell with
nothing to do because of drugs, while my mother, well no one knows where she is
at, and so I am grateful to live with my aunt and uncle. I think that is why I
am so against drugs because of these experiences in my life. I remember when I
first moved in with my aunt I hated her. I was a bad kid. Never listened, or
completed my chores.
Then when you get older, you get more mature.
It scares me because like I said I always wondered what life is and how the
real world plays into life. Also I find it very interesting to see how much I
progressed on a maturity level as a person. From family to boys to school to
working it really made me who I am today which is independent. Having a job and
going to school with shows every two months is exhausting and I barely get any
sleep, but it prepares you for the real world and matures you. The thing is, if
I barely get sleep now and think everything at the age of eighteen is
stressful, I can only imagine having a real job, married and kids to take care
of.
Honestly, I like preparing for the
real world and I am glad I have a job, but sometimes it is just too much. Most teenagers work to only get money and then
spend it while, I have a job so I can keep myself out of trouble and learn some
concepts of life, and not be a screw up like some people in my family or kids
in the world.
